12 weeks!

 at 2 months old he was grabbing things and being inquisitive as to what all the fibers were on his blanket but i think it is so cute when i can capture him in the act.

It is so incredible to me every time i look at our son to think that we created him. He has brought so much joy into our home and lives. My heart just fills with love every time i see him. I look forward to going to bed so i can see him in the morning and getting off work early...when i can... so i can just spend a little more time with him before he goes to sleep. he is 3 months old now and at that point where he undoubtedly knows his mom and dad! He giggles a little and it is so cute, he is just starting so we are not at the point where it is rolling laughter yet. he only cries when he is hungry, and even when he wakes up he is really calm and just shuffles around a little until i go get him to feed him. I am grateful and so thankful for Brighton. I am grateful for being able to have the gospel to raise him in and do everything in my power right in his upbringing to have a different life than i did. I love being Brighton's mommy. I cant wait until he can say mama!

640 million what!

ugh... the thought that i can never win the lottery is sickening. why cant we use that 640 million dollars to get the US out of debt! haha. oh wait... that would not even put a dent in it...but i know who it would get out of debt...!!! ME!!!!! house, car college, EVERYTHING! its crap. My heart hurts to see that number of dollar bills never go into my bank account:(
Hey but i have a job! so i guess i will take what i can get..right?

Motherhood

This post is turning into a pictureless boring blog. I need to whip out my camera... It seems that everyday in a normal conversation about life with someone you meet you are almost always asked the question, "do you have kids?" Saying no was the norm for me...no, not yet. We want to wait a little bit (YEARS)... I was in the store the other day and a random guy started having a conversation with me about how cute brighton was and asked "Is this your first?" For some reason i get a little butterflies in my stomach to be seen as a mother and how do they know?! well i guess not too many people have a young baby with them and its not theirs... but I love how to question has changed! My mind is still completely blown that i am a mother. I woke up at 430 am to him crying 3 days ago and all groggy and half way asleep i walk into his nursery and look down at his big blue eyes peering up at me from his crib. He sees his life line and INSTANTLY he stops crying and a smile creeps up on his face. I love it! I love how he is so dependant on me and opens his mouth when i go to kiss him. I love his coos and his little sounds he makes when he is eye to eye with me and how loud he is when he eats... seriously people think he is starving to death but thats just him. Brighton is such a blessing to me and Andrew. Life has gotten back to normal around here. He sleeps through the night and is on a schedule. I can understand his cries and know his tricks he already plays when it comes to sleeping. He has me wrapped so tight around his finger already. I am just on the edge of motherhood and i cant wait to watch him grow more and more. I even dont mind being peed on or poop on my hand, and i can even handle an armpit full of spit up:) I just simply love him and everything about him. I thank heavenly father everyday that I have such a joyful blessing in my life. I am already starting to love the idea of baby number 2. When Brighton turns 15 months old I will hopefully start the incredible journey of growing another one of these heavenly beings!

21 days??? why not 60 instead

I am the kind of person who has GREAT intentions... while i was pregnant i told myself that for the time iw as off work i would be at the church every m-f at 8 am to work this baby belly off... funny that i have lost all my 25 pounds of baby weight but my stomach looks awful....like i ahev gained 25 pounds of skin! haha... well back to intentions... that thought of mine, never came to light. Nope!, not even did i get out of bed and get ready to go to the church for a workout...not even ONCE! so today I am at home, sent andrew to church alone because i have a pounding headache and a tooth that is going to kill me until 7 am tomorrow when i get it fixed... and i am blogging... again with good intentions, but this time about a 60 day challenge. Can you hold it against me that i am terrible follow througher unless it absolutely HAS to get done? well not this time lovergirl! I bought INSANITY a year ago... correction, more than a year ago. I saw a commercial today about it and thought, i should buy that and do it. I swear a rocket came down from space and bashed me in the head... HELLO! dont you remember spending like 150 bones on that! OH! why yes mandy, i certainly do! I got so much crap from my husband because i wasted money and i used it for a week then let my excuses and other things take my life back over! sheesh! well forget a 21 day challenge on focusing on myself... I know everything there is to know about myself. I know how i work. I know that god gave me this body, and for a period of time it was smokin! :) so this is me exercising my agency to exercise! yay for killing myself for the next 60 days. I would invite someone to do it with me, but i live on the moon, pretty much away from all civilization. sorry.

On a completely different note. this is random and may not make sense... the other day my sis and her fam were here and one of her little boys madden was asking her to take off his shoes because he didnt know how (that means didnt want to :) It was funny.. he whined and told her to take off his shoe, so i asked him if he didnt know how as i was taking one of them off. he said no so i started to teas him about how he was a little baby and could not take off his own shoes... he reached down and literally in one second he took the shoe off, threw me a look and then out the door he went... Now THAT is reverse psycology! well..... as i am sitting here in my computer room posting this nonsense, BOTH of my little dogs are whining and jumping because they want me to pick them up and put them on the bed... i have seen in the past that they have jumped but its rare because its a high bed... well i realized i dont hear them anymore so i was thinking they muct haven given up and gone downstairs... WRONG! I look back on the bed and they are both snuggled up to eachother on a pillow! This is my realization that i have spoiled my dogs because they will whine for 10 minutes until i pick them up or give them what they want. ugh! i wish reverse psycology worked on dogs too:)