Baby time?

Everyone i know and everyone around me is with Child. Its kinda sad. There are so many times where me and Andrew are so ready for it to be but its not... I guess i just keep waiting. Now that we are both starting our own businesses and i got a hugh promo at work it makes me even more sad because NOW its not the right time for kids. I keep thinking that i am being so selfish and that i need to fulfull my motherly calling then i always hold back... ughhhh.. why can't i just make up my mind!